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  1. They are very tapped into the way people view them. The car grill even need to be bigger then everyone elses car. The watch has to be new and outrageous. I did love when I was talking to my son on Skype and my EX bolts into his room. He announce that he has to get off the computer and help him. His Bar-Be-que. Rolled down the hill in his back yard because of a brisk wind. Then ask my son what he is doing? He responds talking to mom! :-) So let get this straight: Idiot did not set the foot break on monster new shinny grill. Its too big even the GODS CAN NOT MOVE iT!!! LOL It rolls down hill and tips. This is such a huge job requires my son to stop what he is doing to fix it. Because son is the bigger MAN! He is such a man he can't haul his own grill up a hill even with wheels. :-) Lets look at the time? Yep right when all the neighbors are diving home so they can hear him laughing overly loud and instructing son. One of life's most important skills is to learn how teach your son to haul the grill up the hill because all grill roll down hill unless your in heaven. When using a grill it's very important to take it to the tallest point of your property so that you can show the neighbors your smoke is not a fire. Your new wife is so selfish she will not help you haul that grill up the hill but points it out and has known about it all day. :-) JOY your new grill is now dented because of nature time to buy a new one because gosh it just sooo sad! :-( Poor little boy!!! Son pick up grill and returns to mom because he is efficient and well loves mom! <3 God Bless a mother that waits... AHhhh!!! Dealing with gas-lighting can have it wonderful moments. CHERISH THEM!!!
  2. I wrote this agreement and it was part of a marriage class we took together in church. Not abuse focused but possessive life creating. I choose to keep this document that has his signature on it. Quiet enjoy reading it. I particularly love how I highlight aspects of care. As if I held his hand and stroked his ego to treat me like the loved cat sitting next to him. It was exactly what you said. In our hall and look great. Even had official document etching. visitors we are trying this hard we covered these topics. "Barf" still could not figure out how to love me. As if not treating some as a burden is difficult. I actually find it very hard to treat people that way. This is the very mystery. Even when people are jerks I still find it hard to not be respectful. I guess these people really do enjoy what they do. When you try to stick it to people it take so much hate and is suck hard work. I pretty sure there are no filing cabinets in my brain that enjoys taking those type of notes. What people assume that are not fully professionals is that you can give them the image and create the magic they always wanted in life and have birds chirping and harmony. This is a lie. You end up many more years emotionally bankrupt with a man unwilling to love the true you. They love their dream. They miss the you have to be honest in order to heal phase. That might requite a few harsh words and straight out resistance. I do not look pretty in this phase. A band-aide only provides time not healing. AWESOME!!!! It's the Johnny Appleseed that keeps on giving. My friends in High school made up a joke. It was the Name Johnny Appleseed. It meant nothing. Not even a statement it was just a name. So the few people that know loved it. Would laugh and pretend they understood the joke and nostalgia of Johnny Appleseed. People would be so frustrated some even pretend to know and made up a theory to hold as to what it was. They even started claiming to be experts on what Johnny Appleseed was? Five years later the cat came out of the bag it was a measure to create interest like quiz did in the town around the 1800's Johnny Appleseed did not catch on like quiz did. You could say it died in it tracks. LOL
  3. Seven years out and I can say they do not change. They work really hard to try and set up scenarios where you have to try and exalt them from their new platforms. They might have a more pliable source and try to make you feel guilt for not being with them or even try and turn your external support to he is a great guy type of cult like following. I always say he had no problem taking people that treated me bad to dinner and buying them a drink to celebrate himself. You are at the other end of that fun sarcastic little boy. It is not humour but a doubled edge steamy poop sword of entitlement. They have no guilt for burying you emotionally and financially. Remeber: You can have a relationship with them but it might not be emotionally rewarding. They have no concern with bringing out the best in you. The mutual two side values of a true relationship is usually absent. Only people that get to know you can validate you. (They have spent their entire life teaching you who they are.) Relationships that keep you in defensive stance become offensive. Usually they befriend you to show you a carrot of what they wanted out of life. Which usually has nothing to do with the desires of your life goals. My EX has spent a majority perfecting all the things I loved and wanted in my relationship. Ones he made my life hell over. Ones he refused to do with out a fight. In the US those were things I wanted. Living in AU well it's different. So he loves to post all the things I love with her and pretends I am jealous. In the US plenty of places to go out dancing. In the outskirts of AU well unless you want to dance with the golden oldies or topped up teens. Just not the same adventure. So it not on the same list from when we were married? Yah, now I am over it. So does it mean I gave up my goals or rusted away my ability's. No I changed my place and sorry hiking and beach walks are my new dancing. I will not forget picking up my child for my parental visit. He hit the garage door. (funny most people use the front door) YEP NO DRAMA THERE!!! My son walked out and his dad took the hand of his EX finance and they started dancing and he was twirling her. I laughed so freaking hard. Then she went to shake my hand. So I gave her the dreaded Indian knuckle squeeze. She had to take it with out screaming. No she would not show drama!!! LOL
  4. Hangin On this is the first I have heard that you divorced him. I am a christian woman and I had to divorce my Narcissistic EX. While it was a burn into my testimony of what I was trying to assemble for my life. My relationship with God and my continued effort to not let the Narcissistic wound take hold was my saving grace. I have improved greatly and while I can still feel the effects of the PTSD that took me 7 years to heal from. I keep sending reassuring statements about how lingering memories does not mean I am not healed from past events. I hit a block wall in my faith because my EX was etched into my baptism. I redid my baptism so I could have a point in time that he could not use gas-lighting to affect my faith testimony. This was pivotal in my healing. It was like my life was able to be mine personally with out him connected to my inner core. I am doing so much better. I can hear the importance of being a kind forgiving person in your responses. I am glad to also hear the honesty and truth that you are claiming buy owning what occurred. Healing has been an amazing experience for me. Going to the groceries store or taking care of my life piece by piece felt like the first time I had lived. Encountering Narcissist in this world and know I could have a different response because I am whole. They truly do try to damage your inner core. It is how the see themselves and how they see you. There is a lesson that these people missed and why they function and can communicate. They effects to create that warmth and enduring love is a goal not a known. It's funny I use to have deep wrinkle starting to form in the middle of my forehead. Since I have left the Narcissist these wrinkles have dissipated. The daily frustration was even changing the way my face looked. Feel beautiful and thank you for catching us up. Please check in and help others escape these pains. I have learned how loving my god is? I too can make mistakes. My mistake was not understanding how important marring a spouse that had warm empathy in his nature. I really needed that warmth and because of what happened to my family I did not know what it looked like. I could give it but could not recognise this quality in people till after I learned of the coldness I lived with. I needed to stay in one place not move around. I needed to build and surround myself with like minded people not seek attention. It took leaving to heal. So I am grateful that while I make mistakes I can learn form them and know how beautiful I really am and can be. I am trying to find my new sense of shiny and my new ways of adding the rest will assemble itself. I always say a truly abused women knows why you can not stay. They grasp it even when it goes against the very things they believe in. Why I like to help others find their way but each woman does have to carry her own cross. I knew one woman and tried to help her. Gave her all the books to read and even considerate acceptance and support. She kept falling into to wanting people to do it for her mindset. Then she would not take the knowledge of the experts in the books and psychologist. She took it in her own hands and only listened to her family. Why she loved her family they were not the experts and gave her very lineal advice. She was functioning to feel loved and did some bad mistakes that gave her narc a foot hold. Not just once but many times. Why she did learn more how to not be taken advantage of she did get stuck in the revenge trap. This affected her relationship with her kids. They wanted a mother that loved them. A soft place to land and ended up with a mother angry at them for going along with an occasional gas light. He transferred that pain successfully to his children. I tried and she is happier but she too is also responsible to minimise damage on her children. She did not claim the abuse only showed anger and denied therapy. The example I give is one that claims the PTSD and one that receives advice and healing from professionals. I have the love of my child. I care about my child's well being and have his love. It's a trick getting out but you also have to grow up. This lady missed the grow up phase. It's is hard to grow when someone consistently tears you down. You sound happy and healthy. You have done well. This is why you find a lot of older single people. It just takes longer to know people we understand so much more. :-)
  5. Good News! Sounds like the marriage counselling helped.
  6. They do not change if the grass appears greener on the other side it's only because of the general nature where people cover that stuff up. These men exclaim with their mouths lovely statements of principles. Yet show the very things with cruel intentions hidden. They will always try to make you feel and look mentally unstable. There is nothing you can do! It took me a while to realised that that feeling I placed was my hope for my life. He did not care that I had good memories. He cared about his sarcastic humour that belittled me to be the tuff guy and get a laugh. He did not know me and did not care to hear my soul and words in my heart. He had the list of do's and don't and never saw a person. He used that list to justify himself. If your lucky you will not be in contact to see his spots. I was on the other side of the world and mine still did some horrible things. So distance has nothing to do with the reach of a true narcissist. You have done the right thing. The best thing you can do is to believe your experiences. Trust yourself and know you did go through something cold. Hold to your standards of needing love and fair treatment. There is a reason we stayed in that treatment so long? Some things I did like about him. It was just those overstepping quality's that made my life so difficult. This was not me it was him. Sounds like your daughter just wants you to deal with it and accept it. Most kids just want a parent that loves them and these emotional disasters really take a toll on that connection and parental love. Sad for Arizona have family there. The state lost a narc and gained one. Kind of like the Twilight Zone. They are all waiting at the edge of the town. Two lines at both sides. Their are two people one a little boy named "poor me" The other a full grown man called "Smuck". They have to please Poor Me or Smuck to get let in. Then on the side at the door is "Pathetic". He has sweat pants on and eats like a truck driver. When Pathetic has had enough then he lets one boy/man out and the new town boy/man subject can come in. Pretty sure its the Twilight Zone that never made it to the big screen. They all got in a fight as to who was the better actor at the preview. They could not understand they were all good actors people were just sick of seeing them. Not one of them was a box office smash and all together was even worse than the Three Stooger's. This is what happens when I write to earlier in the mornings! :-)
  7. You have done well. You know what helps is an undefeated perspective. You have been through a lot. Take a piece of paper and write different correct strong perspective to hold. Keep it with you and answer people through this strong kind strength. Every time someone reports him even when he bails himself out it is recorded. You are not is control of the way this things shapes itself. It is it's own moving tangible thing. What you are in control of is you and If you accept you're in control then no way would you accept an adult seeking nude pictures of your daughter. People try to get nude pictures to guilt vulnerable teens into actions they DO NOT want to do. If it was your child would you care about how popular he was and how many people liked him? I am grateful for people that care about me and my mental well being. I am glad that if it ever happens again I did my part to bring his actions to light. If it does not happen again it will be because he learned people have had enough. That too is a positive response from me bring things into the light. I wish more women felt they could open up about things that have Inappropriately occurred to them and just get help? Do you feel like you let people open up and heal or do you form judgments? (Sorry, that was not a question you know who you are) kind, gentle, strength! You never have to worry about what someone thinks. You are in another category. Parents teach teens to think of others to try and get them to be courteous and considerate. You will still possess these qualities. Now that someone has overstepped your boundaries you have a socially wider role to play. "You see these things never take your voice these things give you one". I firmly believe this and you can quote that comment. You have been given a deeper understanding of life that the average teen will not possess. All and all it might make you a parent that has deeper talks with your child and listens to them. By no means will you not let your own children not live life because someone hurt you. So know how amazing you are. You have a very deep and immense ability to love and be healed. If others do not grasp it because they only need to get up and smile for the camera. Say please and thank you. You have a deeper understanding of this world and they will figure it out. It just might take life. :-) Wishing you victory on your trial. Just know that no matter what even if you are disappointed at some of the outcome. You did do the right thing! You can hold it in your heart. The fact that everyone is forgetting things is a good sign. You are learning something important. Your observations are putting it together. If you knew how little people think about you, would never fear what they think again. People are thinking of themselves. People are very self-centred!!! You have a lot more room to finagle and move around than you believe. You even have room to make a few mistakes. Perspective is not locked in... It changes... Facts, responses, outcomes, truths, character and even people have to acknowledge that they themselves are responsible for their reactions and own human nature. This too can change any outcome. Please understand that things might feel like they are this way but that is how it feels at the time. You might not see all of the elements that are in your favour. You will, however, feel strongly when you come across something that feels like it is not in your arena. Feelings are barometers use my above list even make your own. You talk to people through your strong personal insight. They will learn that you're smart. You will find others are kind of quite. The reason is they just want to have some fun smile in pictures and laugh at good things. People build in these areas. It's not your fault and as you move forward, You will see you have people to talk with. Just go slow finding those individuals. It's worth waiting a year for a good friend rather than healing from the aftermath of trying to relate to a shallow person you would like as your friend. Good friends take time and I will tell you a secret. Lots of adults get so busy in their jobs they will lose touch with many after high school. Just do your phases well. In twenty years you can have pictures of your kids. The places you have gone. Your interest and talents. Please explore picking up talents. You said you were in the band. You know to go after it and try out for performances. It will be like the biggest middle finger to that idiot teacher. He has made his career hard and killed working with children in a big way. The advantage to having a voice is good. When you work with children your integrity will hold faithful and be real and solid. You see the way it works is you can work with kids. It is a privilege. Unless you abuse your privileges and that gets yanked from you. You will function in a way that idol reports can't hurt you nor tamper with your life anymore. The time will pass all it will be is a bad thing. This has no hold on your life and it will not have the same weight you might feel it has today. It dissolves in time like an Alka-Seltzer in a glass. The world absorbs it. Sending you sunshine!
  8. Welcome so glad you are here. He manipulated you and when you grow up you have a responsibility to set boundaries with fragile teens. He understands what he is doing.
  9. They main reason most people do not leave is because they are holding out for a bigger picture. They do not want to support themselves. They do not want to break up the photo album. They are in denial as to how it affects them? His humour is off and he likes to overstep the grey lines. What does he do other than verbal? His humour actually like to throw you around and make you look insensitive and it is him. Would he really set the cat to blazes? This is what you have to determine. Whats real and whats not? How long does he keep you out of the touch of society to be a funny boy? Sounds like everyone stopped laughing years ago?
  10. This is not the thing that counselling can fix but distance works wonders. Sometimes counselling helps you see that you are a better stronger woman that you have been lead to believe. That you can accept the things you can not change and make good healthy decisions for yourself. Why do most people believe counselling fixes things. No, it helps people see truths and live full healthy lives. A marriage takes submission on both sides. You are married to someone that will not submit and blames you if he does. He has no feelings for any of the life's events that matter in your life. A friend would want to help you be able to say goodbye. He cares about you slobbering on his nob, caring for his children and a dinner in his belly. I kind of made it simple to remove control issues with giving head. I was carted up to the mountains and forced to do so or be raped. For me, I just tell my partner that it's not something I consider intercourse. It has to do with my vagina and I also need to orgasm. Giving head does nothing for me and I do not accept that type of treatment. Hope what I wrote gives bits of help but my feeling are it will just make him mad. Let see everything makes him mad. Your dad dying makes him mad. You having personal space makes him mad. You wanting to have some support with the children makes him mad. He is so predictable? I have a feeling that marriage support will just make him mad that he has to spend money to make you compliant? So therapy just does not go after fixing things. Sometimes it brings it right to the head. Like a big old zit!!!
  11. How nice!
  12. We all get tickets and cars break down. He is giving you guilt and blaming you for his anger. He is even holding you responsible for his mental state. Not cool at all! Your roommate said that because he unloaded on him too! He is trying to problem solve it by responding to how he received information. Your abuse blames you for his mental state so he asks you to keep it cool. This is a clue to how he talks behind your back? Do not participate in his madness. He will try to blow it out of proportion so he can rant and blame you more. Hold yourself and your ground.
  13. Wow- you have a whole mesh bag of disrespect going on. He is a right fighter and tries to put you in the wrong so he can win. Look the sex thing I do not believe anyone should have sex when they are upset and fighting. Sex is an intimate thing that makes you vulnerable and you should have a mutual respect of that vulnerability. So you just need to clear the air first. Him treating to just get it somewhere else that was a manipulation. Of course, fights affect the sex life. You have the right to love your family without him being jealous or mocking you. He is not two years old! You have to acknowledge where you are at and if sex has been interrupted because of disrespect. That is actually a normal thing that happens in most marriages. Some really bad marriages have been held together because of sex. I do not think you want just an apology. I think you want understanding and consideration. I think you want him to start to see the person in front of him. I not sure that if he just apologised it would make it better. Look the whole nagging through the cell phone needs to quite. In fact the next time you are at the emergency. Leave it at home! He can show up and get his information when you do. He wants to be the first to know before your family. That is something you might have to wrestle with. Well if he is slow in response he might have to get over it. Hope this helps. I think you need pre-marital counselling for the respect issues. If that does not work then know you have big decisions to make and those change your life. If you're dealing with a narc all the pre-martial counselling will just make a bigger smuck!
  14. OMG institutionalised. Boy, can he over react! Yes a text is appropriate because he stood you up for dinner without explanation. If anyone says anything to you, let them know when you stand someone up and then blow it up in your face a text is an appropriate way to break up. Sorry but the drama is not attractive and you need stability. You are allowed to break up with anyone you want to. If it's not right then it will not work. You do not have to go into details. My EX-used the details to try and hurt me worse than trying to understand how he hurt me. I would say you need to respect and trust me. I said it was over and you still do not hear respect or trust me. Let me say it again IT'S OVER. Now respect how I feel. The lead foot of I'm done with you!
  15. You can't fix stupid. Who cares about his keys. They also sometimes grow a beard and ask for lots of attention. The less contact the better. If he is lying and gaslighting others. It keeps you out of the mix. It is important to keep your distance so he can not make a bigger mess of your life. They scheme and if your alway seen at the center of contact they can try and make the stuff look as if your the one doing it when your not. Block him!